I guess

 

Ramadan hits different every single time. 

Because of the major turning point back in 2009. So no matter which month of the year Ramadan is, it still hits me low. A whole week has passed but I only had Day 1 completed. It was a long day yesterday. From Sunny to Thunderstorm. But really Allah knows best. 

It felt rather at peace than before. No doubt still haunts me sometimes. So many questions. So many what ifs. Eh I could be sleeping for another 20min before I officially start the day but here I am pouring my confused emotions. For all that has happened, Alhamdulillah. 

the First

 We received food from our new neighbour today. 🥹

So grateful. 

Paiseh cos I didn’t have much to return except that box of frozen eclairs. 

Gotten my results today finally and Alhamdulillah.

A little cake to enjoy before Feb ends.

Almost a wk of puasa and can I say that I’m so done with Kuih Raya? Cos we ordered eh more than 6 bottles already la seh. Aha. So done!

Annual iftar 2026

 Didn’t expect that I could not puasa the 2nd day but Alhamdulillah managed to complete the 1st day of Puasa.

And the jiran without fail shared rezeki with us. 🥹

Grateful.

Annual iftar with siblings in law returned real early this time. And I couldn’t believe that our last iftar together was back in 2021. Been 5 years? Hmmm. Unless I didn’t have it on records. Heh. SIL cooked a storm as usual.

Dendeng balado, kari ayam, roti kirai, pacri, ayam grg. We brought along rojak and talad pisang while the other sil had choc moist cake and tiamisu. 

Thankful for the rezeki and more thankful for the bond we shared. 🥰

Ramadan Goals

 Bismillah.

Ramadan’s here. So let’s set some realistic goals to achieve before Syawal. Insha Allah. 

Happy that the lights are up! Just in time before Maghrib. 

Had a last min decision and wrong 1 I would like to think, to Jewel then to Amk. When we already planned to have lunch and settle groceries at Amk. Made home just before Asar. 

Since today last day to get almost everything done, I ironed my clothes for this wk and next! Yay. 

Oh ya them goals.

- to be minimalist really for buka and also for Syawal (go low for the kuihs and erm baju)

- read more pages of Quran instead of just 4

- start spring clean the house early

- rid footwear that I’m not gonna wear anymore

For now, can I have the sun back pls? 

Why?

 Why do I feel like I’m not ready for Ramadan?

Still so much to do.

Yesterday we had Yu Sheng cos sis’ friend sent it over. 

Alhamdulillah. Such a burst of flavour. 

Saw rainbow on the way home yesterday. 

Missed the sun today. 

 

We only paid $1.70 for these. Cos of the $38 voucher. 

SIL packed so much for us.

That we had these for supper. 

She even cooked opor at the last minute.

Finally had my waffles before Puasa. 

And we cracked open this fortune cookie from Vivo. 

Three

 Ramadan is SO near.

House is still in a mess.

But then later no more bfs so hopefully I could do the chores slowly.

Yet to:

- dust off the house

- iron my jubahs

- make clear my goals for this Ramadan

Yay the bf buddy bought me this and we got complimentary rose. Of the many red roses, I chose the pink one. 🩷

Then came Sat the day to meet the cousins. 

So grateful that at this age, I could say we’re quite closer than before. Alhamdulillah. 

And here’s my presents from cousin. 🥹

He didn’t even nudge me for any wishlist tau tau dpt Swarozski. 💚

Cooling down

 to Ramadan. Eh eh rumah still so berserak.

Then cny coming but can’t plan much cos got so much to do before Puasa. Past few days been so random but had such a great workout. 

Happy to find a pretty serene cafe nearby. 

Got lots greens and cool shallow water feature. 

Lava cake cld be better. 

Then went cycling on Monday. 

And Tuesday. And Today.

Glad that the new dam flooring finally done. 

Believe that the greens they added will be so pretty and hopefully can be maintained. 

Ave 11 - Dam - Aerospace park - back to NP.

Dahla semlm cldn’t slp till 1 ish. 

My most ex rate by far. 

Our neighbourhood so pretty can?

Am so blessed been living with much greenery since young. 🥹

That plane’s warming up its engine and we were right behind it. tsk. 

Been feeling a tad emo of late.

Mehhhhhhhh

That small circle

 Of friends I want to keep tighter. 

Probably this year gonna be the year to keep things low, jaga this small circle and take charge of health.

Went for an impromptu cycle to Sembawang Road to try Pondok. Was an uphill ride so had to push the bike. Wasn’t that far though. Searched for a spot to take photos and saw 💩 . Haiyo. Saw the progress of the nearby bto. And then the jiran came up with presies. 🥺 Why so many? Didn’t give her a list but she got what I wanted and roses too. 

Food was flavourful. Pedas was at bibir only not tekak kind prolly cos I sedut2. Such a risk to take after diarrhoea episode. But Alhamdulillah okay. Will return for other dishes and kuih.

Finally unboxed! Haiz. Such intricate details. ❤️

Okla enough Cartier for now. 

4.3

Actual birthday is here.

Grateful to be able to reach another year.

A lot of changes especially with the loved ones. So much difference a year can make. 

 

A birthday filled with discomfort because of the tummy and fever. Like Allah said hey enough partying and fun. Time to take a step back, pause and reflect. So paid the doc a visit today.

Had to cut short our 1st me time yesterday.

Played few rounds of congkak.

Visited the Islamic exhibit.

A round of carom till our fingers hurt.

Chapter 2

Here goes.

Alhamdulillah. Everyone made it to celebrate my birthday early. With lots happening of late, sis down with cough, bro had changed to new routine and the parents’ unpredictable health conditions, I’m grateful that all are well to be here. 

Could just easily order food BUT I chose to cook a storm instead. Despite having gone to JB yesterday, I think I planned pretty well. Chicken were marinated last night and there’s not much rempah to be used. 

Also, mom brought along popiah (I had to fry), apam pisang and pudding. So here’s the complete menu from me.

Nasi raisin

Ayam merah

Satay goreng

Ayam bakar

Mee hoon goreng 

Timun Nenas

Alhamdulillah for the rezeki.

Thought sis would just order plain kirai but this came!

In pink no less. 🩷

Sil and Bro sponsored this pretty pink bow cake. 🎀 

Which came in a cute box. And they even provided colorful cloud plates.

My presies this year. 

SO grateful. 

Birthday flowers were sent to the wrong unit.

My neighbour brought it over. 

So sweet. Didn’t get to thank her proper. 

Loves my red hot presie from husb!

Hehe. 11 years later another Cartier.