Chapter 1

 

Exactly a month to go to Ramadan. Bismillah. 

Thankful and grateful for Jan. With meets up and memories. Now that we’re reaching bulan puasa Insha Allah, time to slow down. And focus. On what matters. Time to be more disciplined and forget about things that’s neither here nor there. 

Breathe

 

Masha Allah. This week has been long though it’s only Tuesday. And productive I would say. My eyes are so dark that I’m no different than Kai Kai. Just that he’s much cuter. Yesterday, we went to Wardah to grab books (so not us!) then to PS to buy Popmart and Chagee. Yes I went to PS 3 days straight. Now cannot wait to start reading these new books. 

Today was back to back. Had to cook early so that I could send the husb to the clinic then picked up the son and did some laundry then got ready to go to ICA to collect his passport and then brought him to Timezone cos the dad’s down so his break gonna be boring. Updating this with my eyes half closed and hopefully could turn in soon. 

Gotta start spring clean his wardrobe these two days cos he’s outgrown some clothes and gonna clear some stuff as well. But I’m already looking forward to Friday can? 

And you. I’ll see you when I’ll see you. If ever. 

Popmart date

 This was planned only yesterday. It was really impromptu cos plan was to grab my present from Lot 1. 

Sadly there’s nothing for me to choose so I dragged cousin to lunch at Mom’s then to PS.

Besides the tote (loves the huge ribbon on the strap) and phone charm, he also gave me his homebaked milo cookies. Priceless eh.

Had desserts at Secret Recipe (again!) then back at Mom’s. So happy can? So many presents already. 🥹

Ultra grateful

 It’s still January but I’ve been loving Jan more than before. Cos filled with meets up and presents! Been looking forward to today since forever. It’s finally a proper meet-up after her umrah trip. In fact we didn’t even celebrated her bday last yr. 

This was so last minute and we just bought walk-in. Aha horror movie late Saturday morning. Thankfully there’s another couple besides us in the theatre. 

She belanja us Yakiniku and these cakes! Eh tak share langsung. We each had our own slice. 

Then they bought me my presies! 🩷

Most of my presies are in pink! 

Asked the husb to fix my jibbitz. Not sure how he could do it smoothly.

And souvenirs from these two! Umrah and NZ and India.

Movie - Timezone - Yakiniku - Secret Recipe

Spent 7 precious hours together and it was worth the wait. 

#bunianeseday (update)

The start of #bunianeseday celebrations. 

Met the Poly BFF because she bought me the voucher early but it has 1 year validity. Managed to grab my ankle pants in denim with her today. Sayang this one alot because we’ve been through a lot together. 

Thankful that she could always make time to meet up. 

Had nasi padang for brunch at Red Ginger and desserts at Delifrance. 💙

Also, the husb’s bday flowers delivery came tonight.

Early or what? Probably gone by the time my actual bday arrives. But still thankful. And haiz the price.

Just another

 Manic monday. We were so looking forward to Monday because of the first long me-time this 2025.

And we achieved a lot despite some disappointments.

And chaos. 

Bumped into cousin in bus and the bus really took long. To think we were lucky to be able to board the precious bendy, we got stuck in the jam and took us 1.5 hr to reach our bf destination. Really managed to spend quality time with him while the bf bestie napped. 😬

Only had bf at almost 9.20 and Allah’s plans always the best so by the time we’re done, shops were just opening. 

Had to queue for sis and then bought her cookies. Took the train 15 stops away to FC. Was excited to check out the pop-up but ended up with nothing to purchase. Took 2 buses to reach town and then the bestie bought my 1st bday present! 💝 

Unbelievably, after picking up the son, I baked pasta for dinner and also did laundry. Pengsan ye. 

Such long long Monday. 

Ootd for MTP checked! Suddenly nak buy a shirt and saw this cute pink striped and had to get it. Errands after errands. Today had to deliver the cookies then took bus to IMM. Could have. Erm. Nvm. Let’s just chill for bf tmr. 

8.23

 

So i ended my marketing early today and I had time to update my diary. Yes, I still have my personal written diary besides this blog. Browsed through and saw that I started on that carebear drama free diary since 2021.

Entah kenapa fiddle the hp then ended up accidentally vc. So freaky can? I couldn’t even believe myself. Early in the morning. Wth. Just as you accidentally seen too while gg from story to story.

Can I just be the cheer bear in that polly pocket (1st bday present in!) and just forget the world? 😭

Mentari muncul lagi…. Please

Aku fikirkan mendung berterusan

Tapi kini mentari muncul lagi

Kurasa kembali kehangatannya

Maafkan aku meninggalkanmu

Itu kulakukan kerana cintaku padamu

'Ku tak sanggup melihat kau tersiksa

Tuhan saja yang tahu perasaanku

Berperang dengan suasana

Hingga 'kan kuterpaksa meninggalkanmu

Kerana tak sanggup melihat kau menderita

Menyesalnya 'ku kerana menyangkal

Nasib tak menyebelahi cinta dan hidup kita

Syukur Tuhan masih sayang pada kita

Masih sayang, masih ada cinta

~ Slam

Despite

 This FB reminder brings back all the emo freak in me.

But I really loved my 1st ever concert cos back then prolly our hp cam sucks so we were all enjoying every sec of the gig instead of having to look at thousands of hp screens up in the air.

And to think 15 years passed by like that? 🥹

I was already with Mr Gee eh. We’re like only 2 months tog seh and now alamak 16 years tog? 😭😭

Went to collect my new passport and we cycled to the park. Then had brunch at Syed and melayan the sis for a round of bowling. Now body ache lor.

Been raining since Fri and I really missed the sun. 

Please please please come back tmr. 

10/365

 Bismillah.

Took me this long to actually start the entry for 2025.

Wanted to give it much thought, should I put down my resolutions? Should I try to accept what’s done in the past year? Wouldn’t want to start a whole new chapter with negativity right? But we have to start somewhere. Ultimately.

School’s been a blur. Me and him trying to adjust to his new level of maturity, independence and change of academic demands. Still a blur up to this point but have to say we’re getting there. Hopefully. It will only gets better.

Going into the new year is no longer about fireworks. Been chatting with closed ones instead and hearing the sounds from the fireworks all over the island. Honestly, it feels a little scary entering the unknown yet again.

What I’ve learnt and still learning, we lose people all the time. Like it or not. At this age, I still find it tough to accept certain losses when I should know so well that people come and go. A day, few mths, years. Haiz. Some people just come into your life to teach you how to let go. I’m guessing I need to retake the lessons is it? Haha. Kalo da go tu jangan masuk balik pls. Cos I’m easily confused.

Okla enough of heavy breathing eh (cos of the sighing all the waaaaaay through the paragraph). Let’s take it slow and treasure and be more appreciative.

Like this pretty sight that’s so nearby. Feels so blessed that this is just a stone throw away. Macam kalo stress bole je walk over. Tapi nak walk over je da malas. Okla naik bus also can. 

And this pretty pretty flowers near the parents’. I realised so many roadside flowers are beautiful and they deserve more appreciation.